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feel tat im making my own life miserable..... making myself suffering... i have knew it much earlier.... but keep dragging... thinking it will be much better.... after all i realized, it doesn't goes the way as i thought.... wat should i do??? my life is such a failure.... argh.... im drawing suffer in my life....... i got no idea with it..... ever since i entered uni, feel tat happiness no longer the same anymore.... me myself no longer the same as well..... feel like escaping from this town for a while....

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Saying truly deep in my heart,  I miss my dad so much.. was at coffee bean and saw a person who walks like my daddy.. feel like burst into tears but i stopped. I was thinking if he is still around, for sure he will support me...  im so worry tat I'll  be jobless after i graduated. But im sure he'll tell me, dun worry girl, try ur best to get a job.. I feel secure because at least I know there's someone behind to support me if I'm still unemployed.. this matter really a matter for me which I din tell anyone.. daddy's roles are very important... I just feel tat im lack out of something.. I just dun know why, he has the power tat only him can gives to me.. I truly understand those who lost his or her father in their life.. hope you rest in peace, papa.. I'm good here my beloved daddy... miss u so much till words can't be expressed....

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im not sure whether am i happy or not?? even though today had a lots of laughter... although was laughing but still can feel tat some kind of sadness deep in my heart.... wondering was it a right choice?? i really wanna express myself straight forwardly... but seems tat not in such a public area... have to 'gurp' back to myself...

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another depressing day without noticing.... haizz~~~ i think i was expecting too much dy... nothing i can ask for more.... just freaking forget about it.... tears just cant stop from dropping... wanted to find someone to talk with... when i look at my phone list, damn!!! i can find no one!!! damn it.... argh~~~ well, tomorrow is father's day.... the second year u were not in with us for father's day.... we miss u so much.... pls tell me tat u r doing good in another world... take care ya...

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是我的问题吗？？ 我很想搞清楚啊。。。我真的很烦哪。。。 我会傻去的呀~~~

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people tend to regret after things have became tooo late... wanted to apologies, but you are no longer alive anymore... always because of my temper, u tolerate me all the time... do u know wat, i miss u so badly... i wan u here so badly... where have u been all these while?? i wan to apologies for wat i have done to you.... you havent listened to me yet... i havent talked to u too~~~ how could it be like tat??? the man who accompanied me for the past of my life... i miss all the moment we spent together.... seems we couldnt meet each other and talk together anymore like you came to penang find me and bring me out for lunch and dinner... you hold my hand and asked how am i, how was my studies and am i dating?? you told me the road that you like most in penang with the birds along the path.. i just miss u so much, pa... can you meet me in my dream?? i just wan to know if u were good in another world.. omg.... i just~~~~~~~ too miss you, my beloved papa..... i miss ur smile... i miss ur everything... pls take care of urself well in heaven :*

Love you, ur dearest....

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feel tat as a daughter, u are quite mean to mother... no matter wat she has done to u at the past, still, she's ur mum... the one who raise u, feed u and concern about u... u might have forgotten all these but these are wat she did for u, she just wan u to be a better man... never ever let other ppl hurt ur mum like she protects u when u were young... dun compare the life nowadays with the olden day... if u were, u r just comparing an apple with an orange.. i din mean much but i just feel a bit sad on it...