a exclamation mark !!!!

why is it everything ended up like this?? at first i just want to be kind and friendly.. i dun have the heart to do so.... i just wan to be a good friends for u guys.. i dun expect best friends from u guys but just a good friends.. maybe i'm such a failure to be a good friend nor best friend... just treat me as a friend then... if dun wan, u may get lost from my friend list.. u can just block me whenever u wan... what so ever..... i dun care at all... i noticed since long long time ago.. everyone can laugh and play with me when the moment all of us together... but once we went far apart from each other.. i was like no one to them... maybe i'm a friend tat just fool around and bring nothing to them.... i have no idea... even a simple contact through fb also can ignore... maybe we should ended all of our friendship here at that place.. i dun wan to mention where is it?? and wat had we been through... just forget all about it... there's no meaningful memories here... quite disappointed actually.... wat's wrong, men?? erm.. i think is my problem.. i cant be a best friend and same goes to good friend... so, i'm a normal friend for everyone... i have no benefits for u guys.... dun come so near to me... i have nothing... if u wanna get joy from me, oh no... no, thanks... that's it... i dun wan to mention much.. and end here................................................................................. just forget everything tat happened at that place... it was not a part of my sweet memories from now on.... it is a nightmare.... sorry to say tat but i really feel tat nothing worth to think of anymore... and not worth for me to think of those days where we went to, wat we had did from day to night, and wat we've been through from the tough days...