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suppose is a happy outing... but end up, everything changed.. how much i wish i can talk to someone... i started to isolate myself dy... feel so much sad than before.... realize that i couldn't talk to them anymore.... is my problem, i think... no one fault... just feel that i shouldn't face that~~~ maybe is the way i treat ppl.... realize that i dun know how to communicate with anyone anymore.... what had happened to me??? i tell myself to keep quiet on it.... since, i had chosen the choice and i couldn't accept it... therefore, i have to do something not to make myself suffer... i have to protect myself... instead of allowing other ppl hurt me... the one who used to support and love me is no longer here dy~~~ i have to learn to be more stronger~~~ jiayou, ida~~~

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omg.... im so tired... tired dao dun feel like moving... seems like rushing this and tat over decade... and now finally can relax a bit... but still got one assignment need to be handed in... yet haven print it out yet... still got two tests haven do le... argh... but seems no one can save me... omg.... im kinda full right now... ate an apple and 7 pieces of biscuit... now, full dao... dun know how to sleep... but i haven shower yet le... plssssssssssssplsssssssssssssplsssssssssssssssssssss....... i need someone to back up me... im tired dy...

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原来一直以来面对的问题还没解决~~~还以为出去散散步可以放松自我，seems that the problem has came back to me again.... really suffer... the exactly problem, no one knows about it... but seriously, im really suffer in this condition... everyone thought tat im very happy enough... in fact, IM NOT... maybe i should just be more to myself... i've to care myself more but not other's eyesight... i cant fulfill everyone's need... i really cant make it... i couldn't do things properly... really disrupt me... always make mistake... im not the me anymore... well, who cares....

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hmmm... had a great sweet dream this morning... i woke up with a smiling face.... the scene was really real and beautiful... omg... i wish the dream will become real so so so much... i still remember my friend told me tat find a guy that willing to carry u although the guy couldn't make it.... and in my dream, walao eh... apa ini??? but i know is impossible.. the moment has already past and i couldn't ask for more dy... just put it deep into my heart.. *pls dun ask me who is tat, huh... thank you... i know ur feeling dy... and sorry make u feel tat last time... :D


hmmmm~~ just read someone's blog.... want to apologies tat actually i dun really understand until i read ur blog... the feeling tat u give ppl is always tough and strong... make ppl feel tat ' dun worry, im here'.. i just realize tat i din concern u much yet u r always the one who concern me.... thank you le, babi... u know im saying u... aiyoo... macam pai xie a bit dy... but seriously, u never let me know also... im glad to have u at my side... :P jiayou beh... everything will be alright... just do watever u wanna do and appreciate it~~~

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u have already gone, but u never lost in my mind and heart... just dun understand why~~ why ppl have to die? why the decease will not be able talk to their loved one before the second they have gone? im so freaking tired~~~ my feeling is like up and down... super suffer... seriously, i dun like this semester at all... keep blaming without any action.. can i have a peaceful yet interesting semester in my uni life?? pls~~~ i beg u~~~~ i appreciate those who likes or loves me but seriously we r just friend~~~ seriously, i dun like the sarcastic way tat u have been saying to my friend in front of me... oh men.... i wont freaking give a damn... ops... rude!!! but i really mean it.... thank you... i knew time wont rewind but i really hope it will... then i can make a decision without regret...

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when the moment i mentioned that im lost and u stand up to support me without saying anything. seriously, thank you so much. the way that u gave is very different. u do it silently without noticing anyone. i do really appreciate a lot. i'll try my best in my studies.. no worries.. thanks for supporting.. im not used to receive anything or compliment from u guys.. and because of my improvement, i manage to get something without demanding anything. i wish to improve to my general knowledge and my english speaking skill.. JIAYOU~~~~ talk to my brother just now. he asked me, what do u see urself in 10 years time. is must be SMART.. SPECIFIC, MEASURABLE, ATTAINABLE, RELIABLE, and TIME!!! i think is seriously true... im 22 years old... still remember one of my friend said OMG, u r in this age yet, u still dun know. i was like HUH.. oh yea... i really dun know.. feel damn embarrassing... but as least now, i know something about it... thanks for reminding me...