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feel like crying!! helpless!! cant do anything right now~~ wasting my time right now... tian a~~~~ help help me la~~ pls....

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missing those days so much~~~ just laugh, no worries~~~ found tat when we r getting older, things keep bothering us more than last time... i have the best but i didn't appreciate it... regrets but no point to do so... am i still the same me as last time?? or getting better or worst?? have no idea... argh~~ i need a vacation badly but i have no time to do so~~~ assignments, projects and more and more... non stop.... i just want to have my own time... is it possible to have it?? do something i really like it and enjoy much~~~ always wat u think, is not wat u will get...  omg~~~ wats wrong with me right now?? keep complaining my life... i just cant see my future... i cant find my happiness~~~ i was doing tat those days.. but now, looking at the pictures.. will just make me miss it~~ argh...


dream of my dad two days ago... and it was a sad ending again.... i'm seriously will mentally break down soon.. u might not be able to understand... but the strong feeling of mine is very hard to describe... seriously~~~ haizzz.... cried in the middle of the night and no ones ask for u is really cruel.... just forget about it...

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hmm.. maybe i should accept wat is changing around me right now... maybe is my problem... i couldnt communicate with u guys seriously... i have no idea... i just wan to be alone... u guys started to leave me behind... i dun know how to communicate with u guys la... feel that im freaking fake... damn!! actually wats going on right now?? im freaking out of idea... argh... seriously, i dun like this semester at all... feel like bad words flying out in my mind... and wat i realized recently, dun let other ppl know that u r weak... because they wont give a damn on it and u r just being pitied by urself... oh goshhh....

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im just like an useless person here.... a proper tutorial also couldn't do it by myself... argh... sad a...  dun wanna ask ppl but i dun know how to do... ask ppl shows tat im more useless than before... haizzz..... dun have much time here... im kinda stress right now... test keeps pop-ing up... yet, im not confident with even one paper... im gonna die soon....

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wat the!!!! freaking hot here.... really beh tahan a~~ damn.... argh.... hot plus sleepy plus constipation... really cant stand in this kind of weather.. torturing me during the day and night... lack of energy... this morning drank a bottle of brands just to make my mind clear and fresh... but now i've already used up all my strength.... how to recharge it ya?? so difficult la....

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oh goshh~~~ she's sad... her tear drops automatically... she feels tired... she feels helpless... she feels nothing... she's doing nothing.... she just wanted to escape from this little town... argh~~~

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wan to blog so much...but seriously dun know wat to write to express myself in this complicated world. wondering will i have tat kind of life again or not~~~ the moment i most enjoy... drinking alcohol and enjoying listen their sweet voice in a nice environment. argh~~~ wanna try to be drunk so much.. wanna escape myself from this town.. wanna walk alone in this complicated road.. wanna try everything in this interesting world. do u still remember wat had u said?? still wondering the words tat u have said at tat moment.. is really confusing.. can someone makes me drunk, pls???  i just dun wan my mind to be clear here.. argh~~ feel like going to swim... i can only be out of myself when i am swimming.. focusing on the steps by not thinking anything... really enjoy swimming.. seriously, many things to post... but not even one i can say it out... haizz... alcohol pls....