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cried a lot... seriously, cried a lot... my eyes are like swollen already... this afternoon thought my dad was in the mortuary room... i was holding his hand... cold yet no respond... u will never know the feeling... have u ever thought of it??? i do not thinking of it for once until the incident happened.. and it was badly scary... how much i wish that was fake for sure... i have nowhere to go... i dun wan to stay here and i dun wan to go home... in fact, i dun know where to go... independence!!!! i have to become a STRONG WOMEN indeed... when?? when i can achieve it?? please PAPA, please GOD~~~ PLS bless for me... i dun wan to have this kind of life anymore... was aimless, and meaningless... jiayou!!!! u can do it wan.....