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the pain of losing a loved ones..... pa, how r u ya??? i miss u seriously.... i still cant believe that u've leaved us so early... i can feel tat u r just beside us.... when the time i go back home, i hope to see u... hope to listen to ur voice.... hope to touch u.... hope to talk to u... i dun wanna remember tat u have gone far far away from us.... i dun wanna remember it.... why??? why will become like tat??? my life seems unmotivated without ur support... i need a strong person to motivate me, pa... do u know tat, ka che has engaged with Ricardo?? u suppose to be there, u know.... argh!!! u still got a lot of things to do and see, pa.... but why??? u used to massage my head when im headache... u used to advice me or conform me when im sad... u used to bring me food when im hungry or not... u used to do everything~~~ but now, i cant get anything more from u... u cant pamper me anymore.... pa~~~~~~~~~~~~~ did i make u proud before??? wat r u doing there a??? watching movie like as usual or drinking alcohol and chatting with mum or sleep dy a??? exactly 3 months i din talk to u dy.... i din see u.... i din touch u.... damn!!! i hate this feeling so much!!!! pa, u take care, ok?? pa, forgive me, ok??? i'll be alright soon... i wanna hug u so badly.... omg!!! i love u, pa... bb.... we love u....