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hmmm.... recently, i felt empty... i do not know wat i really want... i keep on giving myself excuses not to study just bcoz i'm sick... almost a month... it's very suffer seriously... no one take care of u when u r 'oversea' for studies. the emptiness that no ones understand me although i'm keep on going out with friends... it's mentally torture.... i wanna go home badly.... seems that something goes on at my house but i dun know wat to say and how to say.... i'm going to be crazy soon.. sometimes will think negatively... nonsense... something that will hurt someone's feeling if i do so.... is impossible... and i believe tat i'm not tat brave to do so... second sem of mine, is totally suck for me.... i freaking hate it.... oh damn... argh...