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hmm.. suddenly feel tat~~~ im not perfect in tat specific job... hmmm... i wanna be very serious this time... but i feel so lack of confident... im so afraid it will be another failure... haizzz... not confident on me myself and the subject... hopefully everything will be alright... pls... god... thanks god as well...

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Determination!!!!! have to get back my very first determination!!! all i need to believe is that i can do it... believe in myself... jiayou!! just throw back on my previous years' pictures... omg... im so glad and thankful for what i've been through, for what i've tried and for what who i am now... really appreciate a lot... Determination!!!!

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seriously, im really very stress right now.... im so afraid of the way tat they ask questions... im so scare tat i do wrongly in my part... im so scare.. im just so scare.. i do not have extra time to do at all.. i do not have extra time to do preparation.. yet i still have pending test coming soon... omg... wat is this? and i haven prepare for my final at all.. can anyone tell me wat's going on with me? i just have not enought time.. i wanna exercise as well.. but where is the time??? can i have 48 hours per day and do not feel tired at all? is impossible... no no no!!! I AM POSSIBLE~~~~  jiayou ida... u can do it.. just 3 weeks then everything will be alright.. and u can stay at home safe and sound... gambateh!!!! i can do it...

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omg!!! keep eating right now... not even a second tat im suffering from hunger.... how?? who can save me from the fullness?? im freaking stress right now... look like im wasting my effort that i have payoff last few weeks.... damn!!! i should exercise instead of eating... but i dun have the time, seriously... argh!!!!!!!!!

today saw one of my lecturer brought her daughter to school.. it reflects me with my dad at those days... omg... saw the girl was only able to hold her father's finger instead of whole hands... i miss the feeling so much... time passes so fast~~~ hope everything will be alright... all the best to u... u can make it de.... hwaiting...

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out of the sudden, i feel so insecure and lack of confident~~~ omg~~~ how am i going to undergo with this feeling, huh???

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Damn!!! All my hates and sadness are coming out!!! Just wanna to stop it.. I couldn't sleep at all... argh.... mad on myself who being so dumb.... Argh!!!

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every time i go back home, i'll notice that u r becoming more feeble~~ my heart automatically feel pain... im so afraid there will anything happen on u... wanted to hug u but the typical Chinese attitude is with me... feel shy to do so... wanted to talk with u but the ego is with me... omg... wanna treat u good but i know im using the wrong way... haizzz.... life is so complicated... when can we escape from all these huh??? seriously, no idea... this morning when u touched my face, i feel like the feeling is melting in my heart... love u~~~